In your copious amounts of posts all over cyberspace, you have admonished us all to not put man above God. You are right, Kyle, and we are all guilty of putting our faith in the wrong places sometimes. Anyone who looks at your responses on Yahoo Answers will see the same post over and over to people who are hurting. Kiari posted that she felt depressed and alone. Among many other things, you said:
"Don't substitute God or his word (the Bible) for a non-living thing, animal, friend, sensual partner, or some activity. Doing such things are against God and he will punish you for it eventually."
Please Kyle, take your own advice. Let Beth go. It's obvious that you're hurting, from the prayer requests on the Christian teen dating site to the new blog you've created - all of these things are evidence of your pain. But you yourself have made the case that as God's children, we hurt because we need a lesson from God. One needs only read your book reviews on Amazon.com to get that message loud and clear. You're hurting for a reason, a reason I hope you start owning as your own and not Beth's fault or God's or anyone else's. I pray you stop looking to Beth as something you need. It's obvious that she wants to be elsewhere, and it's not your job to force her to be yours. Let her go. You will be happier.
Truthfully, as a stranger watching this unfold, I am frightened by your actions. I'm concerned for Beth's safety. I am concerned by the level of maliciousness you've displayed. One moment it seems she is the best thing that ever happened to you, the next moment you seem to hate her and you resort to threats. That kind of black and white behavior is just not healthy. I beg you to find qualified help.
You are in my prayers as always, Kyle. I pray you let God move on your heart to help you to get past this. I pray you start listening and stop talking, just for a little while. I really believe that a little prayerful silence will do your heart some good, and allow you to own up to things that need owning up to.
I say these things not to judge or to hurt. I say these things as a fellow Christian who sees that you have stumbled and are clearly struggling if you are threatening your life. I certainly can't imagine that you'd be so duplicitous as to threaten your own life not because you mean it but so that Beth will be guilted into returning to you. No Christian I know would do such a deceptive thing. So I can only imagine that you are really poised for suicide. To bring it back to the beginning, go to Yahoo Answers and read your own reply to many many suicidal people. Then, take your own advice. You're the one who calls the "hateful hypocrites" out. I know you'd never want to be a hypocrite, yourself.